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Well it has truly turned into a journal for me. Every couple months or so I drop by and update how my life is going, usually when I'm feel particularly sappy or nostalgic. This is one of those times.

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I saw this in a Every Avenue music video and I think it really fits here: "If you can make it through that much bad, the rest is easy"

This is one of those times.

A speel on the fabulous character of Kakashi HatakeCollapse )

Hey. I'm Julie.

Once again, I have gone ages without posting here.

I'm going to try and keep this short.

I am pleased to say that I am in a much happier place in my life. I have been accepted to every college I've applied to, I got another 4.0 on my report card, I am getting along with everyone in all my classes, GHP isn't hard after all, I am hanging out a lot more with some old and new friends I hadn't previously, they are the people who are goofy and ridiculous but can laugh about it. They are just like me and the people I can be myself around most. I am also somewhat happy and somewhat sad to say that outside of school I have not been hanging out with my 'party' friends. I think it is for the better though.

I feel my life has taken a much fresher, cleaner turn. There are things I miss and things I regret, but I am on a path and at times I may doubt that path and of course I get worried, but I am going somewhere and I am determined to get there. I will not get senioritis, I am determined to word my damn hardest and make everyone around me proud. I will not lose these friends who know me and love me, even those whom I do not hang out with anymore, because when they are sober they are some of the most awesome people I know. I do not have to be part of that life to be friends with them. I think I have grown up a lot. I still have much to learn, but I have grown.

I am going to miss this town and these people and this childish life, but I know that it will be worth it.

I hate the future and it scares me.

So for now, I am living in the moment and taking it all one step at a time. This is my life and my senior year and I am making the most of it.

The good way.

Hello...Let's Start Over

I haven't posted on here in what seems like forever, in fact the last time I posted was on my birthday and it wasn't a really 'feel good' post either. I'm in a completely different place in my life now, it feels like a whole year has gone by and I don't know how to explain it, but I'm much stronger and in a way happier. I had one hell of a good year in school, I can't believe I'm going to be a senior, I've visited many colleges and am going to persue writing despite some of the poor work I have posted up here. I've developed and last year was one of the best years for me academically, I even got a 4.0. In English I got a 2 99%'s and 2 100%'s for all 4 marking periods and have decided to take a step I should have a long long time ago and move up to GHP. I've always regretted never taking the step up to GHP of even Honors, my guidance counselor always told me I could but I was too afraid but when my English teacher told me I was exempt from finals and then asked if I was moving up next year and I said no he gave me this look, he shook his head and I felt dissapointed in myself. I didn't like that feeling, it motivated me to meet with my counselor and change my schedule, it is my senior year so I decided to keep everything else as CP, but this step makes me feel better about myself. I did fantastic in Chemistry last year as well getting 100 and above for almost every marking period, I was pushed to take GHP Physics as well, but I was still too timid to do so. Still, I was exempt from all finals this year, including French which made me feel incredible proud. It is amazing, to be able to feel proud of yourself. I wanted to tell everyone, my relatives were thrilled and told me to keep it up, my mom says that I might be able to get scholarships unlike my brother who wasn't as academic as I am. It may be bad to say but I feel good knowing that for once I did something better than him, for a long time I felt like his shadow. I also took Piano 1 and learned to play, also meeting some amazing people, one girl who has become a very good friend. I'm taking Piano 2 next year as well, despite my struggle in the first marking trying to get all the songs done and only managing to pull off a C, in the second I tried hard and as a class we came together and helped eachother, all managing to pull off much better grades, I managed an A. I'm trying to teach myself more now.

I've come a long way in a year, but I still have struggles, much larger than those when I was younger. I know things will only get more difficult from here on out, but like I said, I am proud of what I have accomplished and though the future scares me and I still hate growing up...I think I did...grow up that is.


Can't wait for vacation.

It's sad really...

I haven't been on here in a while and I could say all the things that have happened to me lately, a lot have been wonderful, other's bad. But that's not what I'm here to say right now.

Lately, I've been feeling something, no matter what, even if I was happy and having fun with friends or family or whatever, I'd be there in the back of my mind. For the longest time I haven't been able to put a word to it, but tonight I finally realized what it was...

I'm lonely.

I'm just lonely...

and once I finally realized it...it was the saddest feeling in the whole world.



I just gave my friend one of the biggest, ranting, harsh, wake up call, texts of all time.

A text that actually had to be 2 texts because I was not allowed to fit it all in one xD and it ended in the sentence, I do not lie:

"It's just that you probably are neglecting more important things becuase of her and that's stupid because you know as well as I that she's not spending every second of her life thinking about you"

Ouch. That combined with everything else I said, was probably a pretty big slap in the face. Super sorry buddy, but it's like you said, the truth hurts, but we all need to face it.

Probably the biggest, most emo rant you will ever see. I'll end up regretting posting this later.Collapse )Read more...Collapse )



Lol, I thought there was something funky going on with LJ, but then I realized I was typing under the HTML tab. Woopsie daisy.

I'm having New England Clam Chowder for din-din.

It makes me happy ^_^


I got a 4.0 last marking period. I shit a brick. xD I was so damn happy.

But I think that 4.0 might be slipping away >.>


Congratulations Jimmie Johnson, for as much as I may have joked around about how a 4-peat would be ridiculous xD, you deserved it. There's not a single person out there that can say you aren't a champ. 4 championships, 4 really big trophies xD You are truely amazing and I gotta admit, I was smiling when you crossed that finish line. There really was no one more deserving than you. But hey buddy, give someone else a shot next year k? xD


And here's to Brian Vickers, my favorite driver, because even though those chase races were really rough on you, this year was fantastic, poles, a win, a chase. I'm sure you'll be giving those champs like Jimmie a run for their money one day xD I see great things from you. Thanks for being incredible <3

Joyeux Noel

I saw this French movie and I've seen a lot of French movies that were okay, but this one, this one was amazing.
Beyond amazing.

It is called Joyeux Noel, which means Merry Christmas.

It's a true story about World War 1 and how on this certain battlefield the Scottish, German, and French all called a truce for Christmas and stopped fighting eachother. I know that doesn't sound good yet, but believe me it is. It is. It is incredibly emotional, afterall they had been killing eachother, then on the truce they got to know eachother, drink together, share pictures, address, memories, and then they would have to go back and look eachother in the eyes, knowing their name, their children, and kill them. It was impossible. They end up getting caught for their truce and punished. The different things that happened to the three troops you can see in the movie. It requires subtitles to watch it, obviously, since it's a foreign film, but it is so amazing. You get chills. And I know it may not sound good, I didn't give the best description, you can find a better one on wikipedia, but it is amazing.

And so sad. Especially the ending and what happens to the French Leiutenant, which I don't want to spoil. It is so sad, so heartbreakingly sad.

It could teach a lot to us all as well. The things they say...it's just incredible. Really. REALLY. See this movie. All the way to the end, please. Remember, it's a true story, this really happened.

Also, the movie begins with 3 children one from each of the countries, reciting what they had been taught, and this is real, something sort of like the Pledge of Allegiance, except, about war. It gives you chills. The work they put into this film visually is astonishing as well. The way their individual speeches all flow into eachother and then it pans out over the ocean and >.< Oh GOD it is INCREDIBLE.

Here's what they said:
Enfant francais: Child, upon these maps do heed This black stain to be effaced Omitting it, you would proceed Yet better it in red to trace Later, whatever may come to pass Promise there to go you must To fetch the children of Alsace Reaching out their arms to us May in our fondest France Hope's green saplings to branch And in you, dear child, flower Grow, grow, France awaits its hour.
Enfant anglais: To rid the map of every trace Of Germany and of the Hun We must exterminate that race We must not leave a single one Heed not their children's cries Best slay all now, the women, too Or else someday again they'll rise Which if they're dead, they cannot do.
Enfant allemand: We have one and only enemy Who digs the grave of Germany Its heart replete with hatred, gall and envy We have one and only enemy The villain raises its murderous hand Its name, you know, is England.

I cannot praise this film enough.

Watch it.


I did that 'How Many of Me' thing on howmanyofme.com where you see how many other people have your first name and last name and then it tells you statistics and junk and for my first name, Julie, it said "More than 99.9 percent of people with the first name Julie are female"

Ummm two things.

.1 percent are male? Is there a boy out there named Julie? O.o

and also, it said 'more than 99.9 percent', so umm....99.942323232 percent?????? O_O


Sometimes, I really don't think I say it enough.

Brian Vickers is my hero.

His birthday was on October 24th, so Happy late Birthday Brian. <33

I could go on and on about why he's such an inspiration, how talented he is, how strong he is, what a wonderful young man he is, etc, etc.

But I think if you just went and read about him for yourself...you'd find out.

Somtimes, when I get faced with difficult situations, I find myself thinking of him. I find myself saying, I want to be just like him.

Never. Give. Up.

He taught me what those words mean.

Let the record show, I was his fan long before people finally started giving him the attention he deserved, way back when through all the trials and errors in that #25 car and that struggling first year with Red Bull. It took way too long for everyone else to realize he has a gift. I knew it from the very first time I watched him race. He was the one. He was my driver and he is my hero.


So I googled the defintion of the word 'Juxtaposition' because, I had no idea what it meant and I needed to know for homework.

This is the defintion I got:

jux·ta·po·si·tion (jkst-p-zshn)
The act or an instance of juxtaposing or the state of being juxtaposed.

juxta·po·sition·al adj.

Ummm...what? I thought there was a rule against using the word in the definition.

Now...I wonder what I get when I look up 'juxtaposing'...

Oh...I did look 'juxtaposing', it makes a lot more sense now. =]

Haha. Especially since I was using it in the defintion of 'antithesis'.


So that's it...I'm calling time of death. 9:24 p.m. Renaldo is dead.
He probably died earlier, but I hadn't checked till now.

I stood there for a couple seconds, just watching his lifeless body to see if his gills would move, to see if he'd take a breath.

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So he's dieing, it's official now.
Meet Renaldo, the best fish <3Collapse )

Renaldo <33

It's so sad to see you go. If you could, pretty please keep fighting, but I understand if you don't want to. I hope you know I loved you, I hope you're going to be happy in the other world, whereever fish go. Pass on peacefully.

But for now, just keep on breathing okay buddy?